Today was College Day. I've been feeling so worn out,tired,forlorn all week. Im on the verge of a breakdown,Im close to shutting off and out. But I keep this mask.I keep the smile straight(I try). I don't know why Im feeling this way,but I feel its due to work,CCA,and myself. It's just building up. During the award presentation where my friends,now in Year2,received their gifts,I can't help but feel dejected,but resolved at the same time.I want to be there.Im hurting here.Im trying my best,now.Im atoning my mistakes for the past year.But the way Im feeling now,have my path lost direction? Am I fighting a causeless battle? I cant seem to throw the pain away,the emptiness inside me. I feel so useless,I might not have a reason.And I keep this mask.