Ilham Firdaus
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Studying in IJC
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reminescence
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torn and sewn again



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Last Friday had a presentation for H1 students about the context of filmmaking in literature,and how these two fields can actually work together as a dynamic medium for creative works..was really NERVOUS before the presentation. I had Asnira as help for the presentation slides..Miss Yap kept telling me it'll be fine..hmm the presentation went pretty well except for a few slip-of-the-tongue and nervous breathes..i hope the year one students at least appreciated it..Thanx Asnira for the help..and Miss Yap for the opportunity.. =>

Todae had SYF dance training again..learnt new steps(penaaat!) and hurt my toes again..We couldnt use the dance studio and had to use a classroom.. =< My toes...

I like my GeogTeacher..a very refreshing approach from having that Mrs Siva as a tutor..My current teacher is much more experienced,well versed,knowledgable and enthusiastic and plus knows how to teach..whereas Mrs Siva onli noes how to scream,look nonchalantly at work and not marking them and say stupid stuff which gets our blood boiling plus crack bloody lame jokes even the Earth's crust hate..Gosh hope this year will be a much better one...

and my Eng Literature teacher is also VERY good...very articulate,has powerful command of English and a creative educator.. =>

i@fun is coming close...



stol uoy ssim i




Blind Deception

How blind you can get
Thinking such a way
How crude a mind you set
Letting things astray
So much time wasted on you
Too many things said to you
But all you paid back
Was such blindness
O stupidity!
Never such naive thoughts
Led into this sanctuary
Into a heart too misty
Your words laced with lies
Your actions of a stumped mind
You reached into something pure
You blanketed it with poison
You had your own one
You had to careen here
With such naivity,stupidity
Tore such a heart bare open
But blind as you are
Blinding others as well
Think you are the saint
No sin you have done
Denouncing that you hurt
With words so blind
A deception befitting that of you
A naive prick
Then faking a limp you cry
Pretence of an innocence
Spewing those blinding words
Thinking those stupid thoughts
One thing to thank you
A simple matter
With your blind deception uncovered
One now is stronger



green apples




and here I am back again updating mua blog..its been a week..a busy week too..these things happened:

1)went to train at Macritchie with Zhi Hao on sunday..very nice weather and very fun training with him.. we saw a couple of monkeys..mini-waterfalls and rivers along the trail,and even a big fish in the mangrove..was like a geog field trip! haha..

2)met fanaa on monday to sell i@fun tics..but funny thing was i FORGOT to bring the tics for her! haha..omg...macam dah tua gitu..met Aqila and Amira,had dinner, and headed home..

3)had X-Country at Macritchie on Wednesday..very fine weather too...had a personal best timing..was knocked out at the finish line and gulped down 4 cups of cold milo...went to thompson plaza to eat after that..

4)Thursday school...had a poetry class for Lit tutorial..knew a new teacher for geog tutorial..and had a basically tiring day..We also have fundraising to fund our stall! A talented classmate made potraits for 2bucks..and a personalised poem for a buck..sales were *sniff sniff* i hate watery noses...

5)Friday. Had Malay dance SYF training..A dance instructor from PA came in..actually we learned more of a contemporary-traditional dance style..was pretty funny also during the practice where we just had to dance using our imagination following the music..according to d trainer..that's part of contemporarizing dance steps..ouch my foot...gonna have more trainings coming up.. =>

and that's about it for this week..(and it was a tiring week) will come by again..
and i hope you enjoy this new song on this blog yea?
cheerios!


Chicken Pie




In my fields of innocence and tranquility,
Longing for the perfect dream, now
Hanging on the threads of time; I fall
Asleep in my bed of thorns;
My perfect dream

Final words of hush, lies
Insecurity, purity, sensitive, sweet
Raptured light luminates all that is
Dark, solemn, solitary
And how I long for it
Under an eternal sunlight, a
Solitary sojourn, sleep now

a Literature assignment,and this is what I had.There were beautiful pieces by my classmates too.I Love Lit. =>

~by a friend

In my own perfect world,
Life love and
Happiness prevails
And I'll run and laugh without a
care,
My own perfect world,that is
where I dream to be
~Farah


Poetry is a beauty unto itself.



Funeral on a Christmas Wedding




ahha had a Gr8 Friday..though it was really pouring the whole day..really cold and wet day.. But after sch went to Friday prayers with Shaz,Dinie and Hafiz in the wet wet wet weather..drenched wen we reached d mosque..after prayers we TRIED to get a taxi all the way till we actually reached Sembawang MRT..and thank God we did get a taxi there..
reached back school and met Fahimah and we jammed! wahha at last Sameon met Miss Neon! and my Miss Neon was alreadi "borrowed" by some of d gerls to take pics! hahaa...my Miss Neon..okies so Cikgu Fahimah taught me C,G,D,A and how to play Adam's Song by Blink182... hehez we realli had nice fun talkin abt music and guitars...and playing our guitars..had fun till abt abt 430 and headed home wen the rain subsided..had a good day..

hope to have another jam session..hehez..

Anyway have u ever had a dream u concocted and built on your own so peaceful,so sweet and so perfect that u thought that this is the way it should be and this is what u want for urself..and would do anithing to protect that dream and see it prevail? A dream so serene you smile when u think about it..and hope the other party would share the same dream as you..But that dream was nothing but false hopes and and a sad pain etched in your memories when it all tumbles down and torn apart slowly before u..A piercing heartache whenver you think about it again.. clutching on the remnants of the dream you know will never be realized and it was just an ember of lies and painful deceit.Shattered glass which cuts you deep when you try to piece it back again...and a mist which blinded you and now clears away leaving the true clear picture..
I had one..2 yrs ago..
and I move on ever since(or i try)..and don't look back(the memories plays around)

and just now there's this bastard who just prank called me asking for pizza and laughter at the background..i put down and he called again..blocked him..fcuking asshole have nothing to do in the middle of the night..skin him alive if i have the chance...it was a useless Mat..trash to d country..

hey you the asshole with HP NM 8 1 0 6 2 3 0 0 , go fcuk a frog in the sewers...


Deep Sleep Dreaming




I've been feeling happier.And it means alot.My class,0744A seems a nice bunch.Over these few days during the orientation and beginning of school,we interacted with each other and I learned quite a number of things about my new classmates.

And I so look forward to learning Literature.And Geography is as refreshing and fun as ever.
No more Biology.No more Chemistry.No more H2 Maths.No more headthrobbing,sweat inducing,heart palpitating,stressfull nights of trying to make sense of the equations and theories.
I've had fun with TriplePure Science in sec sch..I think a switch to Arts in College seems viable and beneficial for me.We are gonna learn "Exploring Other Worlds" in EngLit! Imagine that..
Just what I like..other worlds..Being lost in Fairytale lands and worlds of magic,technology, fantasy...Very refreshing..

My class is a talented and fun bunch..most are artistically inclined,where some are band members,others can debate,draw and others into sports too..Very well rounded...
At least 6 are musically inclined!We can form a class band..hehe..And it seems we can converse as a class..

I really hope for 2007 to be a better year,a meaningful one where I can focus and pick up from where I've fallen.

meht ees ot struh ti




What's on your stereo?
Evanescence,Linkin Park and Poets Of The Fall

What's on telly?
Supernatural and My Name Is Earl

What tickles your tastebuds?
Anything sweet,spicy and yummy...

Set of wheels?
wanna own a HarleyDavidson..or a Rover

Hate anything?
Well God teaches us to love and respect..but i really hate those bloody impatient drivers and hitandrun accidents.Those cowards!Oh and crowds...

Green or Yellow?
I'll take green

Holiday destination/s?
Turkey and NewYork

Anything sweet?
RitterSport,Jellybeans and Snickers

Shoes?
Love them!

the beach or the park?
I love both of 'em.Beach for the sand and tides,park for the tranquility and greenery

Rainy or sunny days?
It depends...

If someone were to ask you if that bottle is half empty or half full,what would you reply?
I'd tell him to just shut up and drink.He should be thankful there's enough clean water for us.

Sports?
Swimming,running and gym

Name 3 things on your mind now.
1)Food(cuz im hungry)
2)I wanna try out my new running shoes.
3)I need to change my guitar strings.They're getting rusty.

See you some time soon?
Of course =>

hturt dellac ssalc a




0744A
A New Start
Faunus
Suprabeings
A Silent Remorse
Today school started.As I watched my friends in second year going for their classes,I felt such a sting in my heart.It was such a painful feeling.I did feel like breaking into tears.Im stuck down here.I felt so out of place.It was really depressing.I didn't have the mood for any cheers,or the school song,or dumb warmups involving our heads,shoulders whatever.I just felt so damn wasted.But there's a silver lining in every cloud.My class turned out to be pretty fun.As the day went by,we had fun winning every station games we had.And we had fun cheering.It made my day for the moment.And my OGLs Venetia and ShiHui were a great fun too.Im pretty thankful that today went well.But still,I need time to adjust myself.

Because seeing my friends in second year as seniors just takes such a big piece out of my heart. I really wish I can be there as well.I want to be with them.Its just so painful not being there in senior year.Now,I have to focus this pain in me to drive myself forward.Earn it.

Because the feeling of seeing them just hurts,and I want to be there.


One Eye Closed




A track through 2006...

~First Orientation @ InnovaJC
~Miccosuki Tribe(Hid,Afiq,Jean,ShiQian,Edmund,KokLung..and more)
~war games(and i have a deep cut to remind me of about this;got it at the field drain)
~0621A
~Campland @ EvergreenPri
~Parliament Trip(saw Eunice Olsen =>)
~Chalet @ ChangiAloha with 0621A
~NUS School Of Chemical Engineering Forum
~Second Intake Orientation--made many more nice frens
~0611A
~Geography Fashion Parade on Humanities Week..(i was a cupid..with a big heart sewn on my chest)
~Film Productions Unit and HipHopSociety
~Camp @ Jalan Bahtera
~MILKrun carnival @ Zouk
~skipping Chem Practicals and Geography Tutorials
~running 5 rounds around Teletubby Hill
~Army Talk @ Innova
~Teachers Day 06
~Racial Harmony Carnival @ Innova(played gasing and sold satay)
~Racial Harmony Carnival @ Ang Mo Kio( was videographer wit ZhenHui as broadcaster)
~CCA Open House 06
~OCS Trip
~watched Superman Returns wit Kumaran!!
~i tore my pants TWICE in school...(once during CCA Open House in front of a dozen people..once when doing flying kicks..how dumb hahaha)
~Birthday Bash for Kumaran..almost got reported to DM by Auntie Cleaner cuz we messed the toilet up..
~Trip to Kampung Ubi CC
~Show @ Esplanade wit Fiee and Syahirah;Melayu.com
~Parents-Teacher Meet
~Wrote poem and drew cartoons in Maths Final Paper
~Jalan Raya wit 0625A
~Teachers' Getaway @ Sentosa Pahlawan Beach
~Chalet @ Changi wit 0611A
~Best Improved Member 06 FPU
~feelings of depression,dejection and the blues
~and a new start ahead =>


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