Frame To Reality

toast to the past

2008-08-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

ohkie most probably im talking to ghosts here,cause nobody ever visits this place anymore.and ive not blogged here for more than a year.
but!
those out there who knows,knows i have a new blog.
so,carry on there.
maybe i'll pen some of my own poems and songs here occasionally.
but check out my new blog ohkie?
ohkie cool.

phantoms of the past
i'll chase you off
i'll fly higher than you can ever imagine

wake me up when its all gone

2007-06-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH

Just wanted to let it out.Summer Tests done and over with,finally. I need to get out,wind out and show the finger to that pile of revision notes.Like finally.
I made a long list of stuff to do after the exams,and its longer than the timetable i drew up for the weeks before Summer Tests.haha.
And weather's freaking hot these days.Exarcebating this headache.Climate's in chaos.Thanks to the adults.Selfish,ignorant,obstinate,polluting adults bent on self-destruction.What's with me and adults? haha. I dunno. Just hate the majority of them. Especially those in suits and ties walking down Shenton way with that haughty,contemptous look. Like they own the street. And arent adults cause of Wars,famine,genocides,political crap and whatnot? haha let me stop here.
Summer Test is OVER!!!!! woohoo.
but then,i dunno. feel kinda empty.
aw,fcuk it.

and you should know it was over by then
but you lied,how could you
your lips say they love
but your eyes say they hate
you said it could last
but you blew it away like dust
you promised the sky,
and threw it away like a stone

...wait for tomorrow...

2007-06-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

Intensive will start.Incommunicado for 7 days.I'll try.Gonna get it down,get down to business now.Get out of the fucking mind,face the time set.I'll have to make it this time.I'll make it.God willing.This is redemption.
And maybe you stitched it up a bit,but it's still torn apart,so slow down my bleeding heart.And hear those cries.I'll wait.

and the clouds broke open
the shaft of light,last life
you held your hand out
i took this blade to the palm
it's meant to be,sunset falls
you hide those tears
i silence my cries,masked
and let us rise,forever lovers

sweet resonance serenading our masquerade

...six six seven...

2007-06-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

Leave Out All The Rest
i dreamed i was missing
you were so scared
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared
after my dreaming
i woke with this fear
what am i leaving
when im done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that ive done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
dont resent me
and when youre feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

dont be afraid
ive taken my beating
ive shared what i made
im strong on the surface
not all the way through
ive never been perfect but neither have you
so if youre asking me i want you to know

forgetting/all the pain inside you learned to hide so well
pretending/someone else can come and save me from myself
i cant be who you are
i cant be who you are

scarred,burnt
you burnt me up inside
torn,broken
i broke the facade outside

...Mirrors on the wall,Cutting the deepest of them all...

2007-06-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

I made a mistake.I can't think right now.Im not myself anymore.I push myself back on the dirt.I break my reflection.I tear those wishes apart.I break my insides to dust.
Given Up
wake in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like i'll never leave this place,there's no escape
i'm my own worst enemy

ive given up
im sick of living
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
im suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

i dont know what to take
thought i was focused but im scared,im not prepared
i hyperventilate
looking for help somehow,somewhere
and you dont care
put me out of my fucking misery

my december,
my cries
valediction,
those lies

...razorsharp light...

2007-06-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

I don't know how I'm gonna spend my weekend.Study?Yea sure..till my brains bleed.Till all I can see is a blur of words,and all I can feel is resent.I hate feeling this way.I want this to just be a passing period,but it seems to be etched deep in me now.And I feel I'm drifting further from you.I hate this.I need to get out,I need air,I need the sky and seas.I need to let this out,but at the same time I'm keeping it deep inside,building a facade.And I'm still not telling you yet,though I want to.

and cut me deep
make me bleed
and close the pages
as my memory fades

...misery...

2007-05-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

Two months.Two months have passed since I felt this way.And Im still feeling this way.Ive just been so empty,forlorn and I cant seem to know why.But Saturday's the day,and it's coming.=>
But I just can't help but to feel this way.Im still in denial.Why am I here?Why am I still stuck here?I used to be best in my class,but that was Olevels.How far from the throne I came crashing down.Disillusionment.And Im nothing.Nothing but denial in trash.Maybe Im losing my sense of purpose.I let myself down.And Im trying to pick myself back up.But it seems Im kicking my face back down to the ground,the hatred.I let myself down again.And it doesn't help school is a fenced-up,walled institution of subjugation,walls here,walls there.What time is it?Why doesn't the day end yet?What am I doing here?What time is it?Im breaking down.And I need you here.

Given Up

Ive given up
Im sick of living
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

...guardians...

2007-05-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

Just ended two days of COP Campland.Really enjoyed it,and this is my third time doing such a camp for primary five kids.I just enjoy and look forward to working,or more aptly put being with kids.Maybe cuz Im an only child.And Im a kid at heart myself.(I still go WOAH and gawk at any cool new toys at ToysRUs,and I cant resist but play at playgrounds once in a while=P)

Besides that,its just nice and I feel happy and fulfilled making these kids happy after the camp,and taking back a lesson or two in life.I paired up with Afi from 0741A,the class we got to mentor was named Care.Hey,let's care for each other! =P

And we really had a great,meaningful two days =>sunset boulevardsurfer's onafter a day's worksyafiq is bigfiqa just bought a new fanand we are buddiesteacher airlifted!Tarzan!and then it was goodbye...uswith Amira3 amigosand we're happy,aren't we?Care,I'll remember

and my insides turned to ashes

i just miss you so

and my thoughts inside collapsed

without you here,

its slow,so cold

...reverberations...

2007-05-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

Today was College Day. I've been feeling so worn out,tired,forlorn all week. Im on the verge of a breakdown,Im close to shutting off and out. But I keep this mask.I keep the smile straight(I try). I don't know why Im feeling this way,but I feel its due to work,CCA,and myself. It's just building up.
During the award presentation where my friends,now in Year2,received their gifts,I can't help but feel dejected,but resolved at the same time.I want to be there.Im hurting here.Im trying my best,now.Im atoning my mistakes for the past year.But the way Im feeling now,have my path lost direction? Am I fighting a causeless battle? I cant seem to throw the pain away,the emptiness inside me.
I feel so useless,I might not have a reason.And I keep this mask.

in my disgrace
with no roads left

...bake my cake...

2007-05-23T18:04:00.000+08:00

Wednesday,POP Surpass Day.We Innovians get to choose a range of activities which teach or expose us to various,new skills like manicure,magic tricks,Indian dance,abseiling and baking. I chose baking,and our dear mentor for baking was Mdm Masayu! She loves cupcakes.And thus we learnt how to bake cupcakes,big ones,small ones,frosted,nonfrosted.Very interesting,fulfilling day. And filling day.Plus there was a 6 vehicle crash at the highway right beside our school.Enjoy.

accident preceding POPMdm Masayu's magic touch

frosting's sweet

the first batchwork in progress
the workspaceit's risinghey,guys can bakethe thirteen

and i just couldn't say it

the way i wanted it

a star up in the sky

2007-05-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

We went down to Fort Canning Hill to watch Midsummer Night's Dream,under the stary night sky on the grassy lawns with the cold night dew on out shoes,and the moonlight shining upon us. I brought chips,Fi brought pasta(yay!!) and Vani treated us all to drinks. I chose Tiger Beer..hahaaa kidding laah,I got myself a 2litre mineral water bottle,seriously.We went up the wrong side of the hill,and spent 20 mins walking around to fnd the darn Fort Canning Green. At a junction,we came upon 0741A,which stands beside us in morning assembly,and I was happy to see them,now at least we can find the place together. When we finally found the place,it was packed with people,already seated on mats sprawled on the grass,it was like a mass picnic.

We settled down after much bickering about a nice spot,and then out came the food.I wasn't even paying attention to the early parts of the play,as I was munching away at Fi's mom's macaroni,potato chips,biscuits and whatnot. I was just eating,and had Fi to explain the show to me.Hahaa...but then I paid attention after that.

We had an interval,and met Rusydia at the FortHouse,had a chat with Nami's boyfriend Nasz.I kinda enjoyed the second part of the play,though i admit I didn't really dig the show.I enjoyed the fact we all came together under the night sky and enjoyed an outing ala-picnic,but I wouldn't want to watch another show like that.Though I dig the theme of dreams and fairies.

And so we went off,to CityHall and separated to go home.The girls went crazy for a moment,screaming like nobody's business in the middle of the street.I didn't know them for a moment.

Fiqa: We don't belong here.I don't understand a thing.

Lassie:Fi,look! Raju.(proceed to do meditating pose) Im meditating.

Ilham:That botak looks gay.

and leave the roses on my casket,

lace them with your tears

and help me leave behind some

reasons to be missed

at CityHall

@ Fort Canning Green

interval

with the guys of 0741A

brudder,sista

@ Peninsula

train back home

and what are dreams,if they only serve to disillusion?are they a man's unrelenting desire for many a worldly wants,or are they sincere visions for the future?

too close too far

2007-05-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

How deep,how dark
I never felt so lost
Never knew,now Im stuck
when all the time was tossed
away so far
You never really cared
(away so far)
when my mind laid bare
(away so far)
when we were all scared
(away so far)
all you could do was stare
(into my eyes so clear)
because that's the only reason so near
you could use to erase your fears

(chorus)
And I should have known
how far this would take me
Taking your words with lies sewn
deep inside all I wanted was
to be free

with hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you

run forrest run

2007-05-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

Today's our college sports meet. I was under the impression i was gonna have to just sit at the grandstand,cramped with others and sweating it out,looking at people run like the wind. But 2 hours before the reporting time,my dear house captain found me in the library and informed me that I was up for 100m boys event. I was in disbelief. Firstly,I didnt think I qualified at all during the heats.Secondly, I just had a heavy lunch. How in the world am I gonna run? But no matter,it was a task for me.I couldn't let my House Taurus down. I got myself ready after attending the Third Council Investiture(congrats to the new batch of councillors,and adieu to the Second Council,u guys did a great job) I got the first lane,and bib number one. The wind blew across as we got to the line. The heat shone upon us. The crack of the smokegun sounded off. I ran as fast as I could. I got the first lane,and bib number one. I got the last position in the race. But I did my best. I just felt darn useless after that. Sigh. I drank 10 cups of Milo after that to drown my sorrow. Haha...
Taurus came out as Champion House for the Sports Day! Taurus Rulez!

i did the best i could
but sometimes the best wasn't enough

voices within

2007-04-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

"You're useless.Really you are.You pathetic coward."

"Shut up.Shut up.Just shut up."

"You shut up!You are one useless fool.You don't dare stand up against me.You cannot break that wall you created.You are weak."

"You created me to drive yourself.Now,you failed miserably again.You are scared.You're weak."

"Shut up.Just go away...."

let this cold blade kiss sweet flesh
let black blood flow a river joy
let break the face in front of me
the pain which only one can see

the once future king

2007-04-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

The College Prayer
with Ray Mcniece and friend
Gemilang Mafias
We are armed and dangerous

This was a day of reckoning for me..I had to present a poem of mine to the school during assembly.Ray Mcniece,an established poet,came down to out school again to have a presentation on poetry,and put up a recital too.He was here in our college the week before,for our literature lecture.He's one heck of a creative,outspoken guy who has great stage presence and fast wits.

Me? Im shaking and sweating the hell out of myself backstage. It was a combined assembly,with over a thousand college mates looking at me reciting my poem. It's darn scary,and i've rehearsed my poem over 20 times,but still shaking to the bone. Miss Yap really gave me the support and gave me tips,and my classmates were out there supporting me too.

It went well,I recited the poem,called The College Prayer with the feelings I had when I wrote it,last year.I wrote it during a Biology tutorial last year,on a piece of Chemistry Practical worksheet.It reflected my feelings of depression,desperation and detachment because of the difficulties I faced last year. It was truly a moment I wouldn't forget,being able to share my poem to my mates.

I can see freedom is still so far

But just give me a shot at my diploma

Leave Out all the rest

2007-04-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

I broke free from myself
We never knew,did we?

I know it seems like we're never coming back

I know it feels like we're never coming back

You tried your best but you knew it wouldn't last

They were the words that she placed on her casket

walk the path

the distance from me

2007-03-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

them
part of us
part of them
us

0734A,wit love

i would break that wall

i would break from you

in time

to come

the distance from you

2007-03-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

i noe this entry is supposed to be in a month ago,but let's all just pause that time button,wind it up back a lill bit,and travel back approx. a mth ago okies?
We had Changi Coastal Adventure Camp from 26th march to 28th march..And it was one of the best times i had so far in college..My class is very ONZ..and Taurus is our House! Taurus!! BULL! D best House in the house! haha...aitz we had rafting,and our self-built raft survived the choppy waves of Changi..DragonBoating was pretty fun,but it killed the poor only two guys in 0734A (namely me and Syafiq) cuz we rowed our hardest,but it seems we rowed using the wrong technique;we raised our oars way too high and this was the comment from our coach:
"Eh the guys in your class row like girls,the girls like guys.How can like this?"
*Sobs*
Then we had Kayaking!Partnered up wit Ain,and off we set..and unfortunately for Ain,I became a radio for the two plus hours of kayaking.Sang my heart out to ease ourselves from the boredom of just rowing,and a trainer told this to Ain:
"If you wanna throw up,vomit at him at the back." hahaa!
but if u cant beat 'em,join 'em,so they say.So Ain sang along,and particularly we sang In The End by LP.Plus,i accidently hit her in the head wit my paddle,thrice..ooops.As we headed back to shore,a storm brewed.I wonder why.Great fun,kayaking.
Then we had Orienteering@Ubin ! by this time i was tired,my stomach ache kicked in,and i really felt like shi**ing at ubin,but since there was no time and no clean water supply,i abandoned that thought.Haha..We used geography skills to find our way around the trail,and the game was mostly running n takin pics...
Campfire Night! We ROCKED Da House! We danced to a body beat drawn by 0743A,and overall we were awesome,we owned...
0734A,thank you =>

pics in nxt entry,peeps.

i don't wanna feel
my heart is breaking
i don't wanna see
my heart is burning

...tick tock tick tock...

2007-03-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

Leadership Training @Innova
Newsflash: Bush Murdered Paris Hilton with a showerhead

discussionyea?0734Aus,always

new chapters unfold

ink flows eagerly,but hesitant

new ties forged

will it last,never told

time will make certain

...cages in my heart...

2007-03-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

Fun day!!! MLEP students are chosen to take part in an event held by AMP at the Zoo!!
The Zoo! Its been ages (6yrs exactly) since I've been there! The Zoo! wooo so excited..i can at last meet AhMeng,the elephants,the polar bears and all the dear animal kingdom! Not to mention see the changes in the zoo..
and thus we met up at AMK station and Diyana was sweet to buy us breakfast..we arrived late cuz missed a bus..=<

welcome to the zoo!

the crew

cikgu's daughter

lil' goat

larger than life

sweet dreams

the world is mine

evolution

feeding time!

warning

crossing the line

let wither the beasts within,

let smother the rage inside

...glass mask...

2007-02-28T13:47:00.000+08:00

this is my glory

this is the story

how my throne came crashing down

and ashes to dust

blows it all away

my tears to blood purged deep

I just need you to bury me

in this unmarked grave

where the tragedy unfolds

I keep not knowing what to do

I keep not knowing what to say

as you keep plunging this blade down in me

you built that fake path for me to believe

now I will never see

how sweet it could be

you never know the price to pay

when I was led down whittled away

hard at work

kooky

you left me bleeding in a pool of blood

tear me up again

...kid at heart...

2007-02-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Went to Kid's Central Presenter Auditions @ Bestway Building and Dhea was so kind to accompany..but gosh the line was soooooooo looong..and by the time we were halfway up the queue,it turned out we had to return the next day for the audition.But I wouldnt come down again,its just tiring.And thus we went to ViVo for lunch and had a great time windowshopping at the numerous shops there.We had a refreshing sugarcane drink after all the window shopping,and off we went home...Went to my Aunt's house to celebrate my cousin's wife birthday..ate ALOT and was feeling full..Cheerios =>Breakfast with Mom! she is a pro tea maker...hehebreakfast...@ ViVo

the birthday cakecut the cake!

my wishes are just the blown away pieces

Green Light Crossing

...smile as sweet...

2007-02-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

break my heart if it makes you happy
see your smile as it sets me free
shatter my smile when you ignore me
feel your breath as it flies by me
break this soul if it brings you peace
put you in me to give me release
cut me deep to find me peace
cut you inside to give me release
feel your smile
touch your gaze
hear your breath
embrace your presence
bring me peace
find me release

two-headed coin

...sandprints...

2007-02-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

We had a nice outing to Sentosa together to just chill out and enjoy the sun,sand and sea. It took us some time to get there since we had to wait for some of us..took the new Sentosa Express Train to get to the island.enjoy the pics..

skies

with Amira in the Express

with Zak

in memory...

Mr Stick

Mr Turtle

smiles...

us..them..us...goin back..

soon this smile may not be here

soon this life may vanish

like tides roll back to the vastness

an emptyness to fill this void

Blissful Pain

...nights too long...

2007-02-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

All I need is an answer
to what empties me so much
for what will fill me inside
and shed light upon these tides
So simmering within
broken too much
torn asunder and rip apart
this red fist inside
These emotions trampled
upon like the grime you accumulate
with all those lies and fake eyes
trepidation in your voice
These emotions are numbed
with the cold stares you stab
so blindly dastardly you try
to bring me further down
These emotions are far too faded
for me to grasp ahold
and take back the light
I held so dearly upon for hope
And I will say these emotions
are what will bring you down
before I see the face again
screaming back at me
And I will say the voice
is what will break this wall
which you bulit around my heart
freeing those tears it kept
And when will I find that
if ever it exists
when will I find the answer
to all this sadness
to all this darkness
to all this...

Will I ever find that,for which I may not even know what is missing?Will I find something which may not even exist?Will I pull through?
God give me strength,and lead me through...

~Fallen,Broken

...Oops there goes the bell...

2007-02-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday went to a PestaPantun at Wdlands library to see some of our Innovians taking part in this Malay poem competition.Met some of my frens at JJC too..Was very interesting hearing the poems created by the students..Some were funny,some were confusing,some had deep meaning,and some realli sounded nonsensical..

Had to go school on Monday for a progress report thingy and selfstudy session. Alhamdulilah i had pretty good comments so far from my teachers..as im being constantly monitored by the CT and STs..though one of the reports said im weak in maths..which is pretty true..But im trying my best still..and passed my maths test!haha..But i still have a lack of confidence in doing maths since i failed it the whole year last year..(please let bygones be bygones and leave the past)

So looking ahead for this year,and CT1 coming soon.. let's have a look at what happened this week..

PestaPantun@ WoodlandsLibrary

With FizahC

Sue doing some Geog Project

break time!

Mr Yellowlet's have a talk..

i am a jigsaw

waiting to be pieced back

don't break it apart again

it may never come apiece ever

Black Roses White Roses

...Black and White...

2007-02-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

We had busy hectic days on Thursday and Friday preparing for the i@fun carnival..We had carwash to raise funds for the stall..Initially we had only 4 orders,but as time went by more teachers got interested and at the end of the two days,we had about 17 cars plus 2 scooters!We had a nice time washing and vacumming up those cars.

And we had the deco to do up in the cafe,furniture to transport,admin stuff to settle,things to loan, and things to buy...Basically we had a tiring time preparing for the carnival. But it all paid off during the actual event!

For my makeup,Dhea painted my whole face white!She did a nice job painting my face,and she was such an artist...den went off to do some more touch up for the make up..Customers started coming in our cafe at about 10,and I acted dead and talked psychotically for my character..Some guests were scared,some were'nt.We took pictures with some guests too..It was stifling hot in that getup and makeup!But I really enjoyed myself that day,scaring some people and enjoying the atmosphere of the carnival.Mom came down too with a fren!Drinks sold out fast since it was a hot day,and we sold out all our food too...

Met Muzz,FizahK and FizahC,Farah and Diyana...Hope they enjoyed the carnival...was realli great fun meeting them and thank u gals for supporting my school's carnival =>

Was dead tired at the end of the day,but really felt its worth..Cleaned up,had a debrief and went to Aunt's house with Mom for dinner..

I@Fun Innova JC ROcks!!

ps:so sorry for those who smiled or nudged me but I didnt respond friendly,one because i was in character,secondly I am really shortsighted and wasnt wearing my glasses!

Kiss That Black Rose

Me and Dhea,the artist

Weirdos

Guests...Me and Mom!

A Scary Match?

Black and Red

Me wit Muzz and FizahC

Ghosts having a break

Horror Galore...

0744A!

... Blue Shoes and Shirt..

2007-02-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

Boo! ahakz..Monday was such a Lovely niCe day! we had a field trip to the National Library to view a Malay Scriptures exhibition called Aksara,which is about ancient Malay scriptures,early writings,and annals.The bus ride dere was fun..We shared colourful gummy sweets and potato chips..First time I set foot into that new library..and d building was pretty cool..futuristic..So we learnt interesting stuff about the evolution of our language and writings,and took a lot of pictures(though it was actually prohibited).

Cikgu left us suddenly since she had to be back in school,leaving us on our own..in the middle of the library..

Approx. 20 kids.One Library.A Big city.what will happen?

haha..nothing lah..except dat Me,Amira,Liyana,Zack and Aisyah went on such an interesting trip! We walked from the Lib all the way to Peninsular Plaza..den thought of bringing 'em to Old Firehouse Museum..but halfway walking there I realised it was closed on mondays!walked back and caught teh shuttle to Millenia Walk..and ended up in Esplanade..=>

Took alot of pics!!Such a nice day!We really enjoyed our day out together =>

and someone's jacket actually dropped from the Esplanade roof down to the ground level..luckily got nice attendent lady pick it up..

Us.

Looking intently...

Library Garden Roof

@ Esplanade!

Macam Bollywood..

Speak no evil,See no evil,Hear no evil

Zack,Amira and Aisyah:Emotive Trio

Cheers...

...road inside...

2007-02-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

Muzz VS The Dinosaur!
Me N FizahK
Apa Muzz tengok tu?
goin' home...
Went to Jurong JC carnival on Saturday,called Love Fiesta! aha met Sue at Boon Lay first..and set off..reached dere around 2pm..
Finally met Muzz and FizahK! There were REALLY alot of people at d carnival.. had pretty good fun dere..Bought pancakes and honey at FizahC's stall..yummy. Then bought chicken rice at Muzz's stall..(Muzz i dun eat timun okies?haha) and den went to eat first at the concourse area..
FizahK and Muzz sat there too and had a great funny chat..

After that,went on too "explore" JJC..haha went to d grandstand..d rides..d "garden"..and went off to buy more foodstuffs..Roti John from Dini's stall and at last the Brownies from FizahK's stall..ah used up all my coupons on food..but worth it..

was really great fun meeting them,and really appreciate the time..

went jogging in the evening with Salina from our neighbourhood all the way to Khatib Bongsu Park..was a pretty nice,tranquil place although there were quite a number of people there; families,couples,children,cyclists..It's a nice place overall..But,there's more..

We went on a pretty interesting little adventure of our own..While walking along the path to see how far the track goes,we chanced upon a small road.Being curious as we are,we continued to walk down that small road.Peculiarly,many cars kept passing by this road,which we thought went into the thick Sembawang-Mandai Jungle..Where did all these cars come from? As we walked down that road,we felt like we went back through time..we saw all abandoned huts and houses,kampung-like buildings,even an old ticketing counter!It was like the kind of scene u see out of a history textbook or an old picture,of a 70's kampung road..There were BIG HUGE trees with vines,and tall lalang and even old electric poles...One side of the road was government land owned by AVA,the other side was a reflection on the past.When we reached the end,it turned out the road led to the main road in Sembawang....We felt kinda satisfied knowing that..haha

We went back to the park and enjoyed more of the wind and scenery,and jogged back to civilization.A great evening.

~reflections of a time~

...a dip on the hill...

2007-01-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

Last Friday had a presentation for H1 students about the context of filmmaking in literature,and how these two fields can actually work together as a dynamic medium for creative works..was really NERVOUS before the presentation. I had Asnira as help for the presentation slides..Miss Yap kept telling me it'll be fine..hmm the presentation went pretty well except for a few slip-of-the-tongue and nervous breathes..i hope the year one students at least appreciated it..Thanx Asnira for the help..and Miss Yap for the opportunity.. =>

Todae had SYF dance training again..learnt new steps(penaaat!) and hurt my toes again..We couldnt use the dance studio and had to use a classroom.. =< My toes...

I like my GeogTeacher..a very refreshing approach from having that Mrs Siva as a tutor..My current teacher is much more experienced,well versed,knowledgable and enthusiastic and plus knows how to teach..whereas Mrs Siva onli noes how to scream,look nonchalantly at work and not marking them and say stupid stuff which gets our blood boiling plus crack bloody lame jokes even the Earth's crust hate..Gosh hope this year will be a much better one...

and my Eng Literature teacher is also VERY good...very articulate,has powerful command of English and a creative educator.. =>

i@fun is coming close...

stol uoy ssim i

...that black bottle...

2007-01-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

Blind Deception

How blind you can get
Thinking such a way
How crude a mind you set
Letting things astray
So much time wasted on you
Too many things said to you
But all you paid back
Was such blindness
O stupidity!
Never such naive thoughts
Led into this sanctuary
Into a heart too misty
Your words laced with lies
Your actions of a stumped mind
You reached into something pure
You blanketed it with poison
You had your own one
You had to careen here
With such naivity,stupidity
Tore such a heart bare open
But blind as you are
Blinding others as well
Think you are the saint
No sin you have done
Denouncing that you hurt
With words so blind
A deception befitting that of you
A naive prick
Then faking a limp you cry
Pretence of an innocence
Spewing those blinding words
Thinking those stupid thoughts
One thing to thank you
A simple matter
With your blind deception uncovered
One now is stronger

green apples

...Black Snow...

2007-01-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

and here I am back again updating mua blog..its been a week..a busy week too..these things happened:

1)went to train at Macritchie with Zhi Hao on sunday..very nice weather and very fun training with him.. we saw a couple of monkeys..mini-waterfalls and rivers along the trail,and even a big fish in the mangrove..was like a geog field trip! haha..

2)met fanaa on monday to sell i@fun tics..but funny thing was i FORGOT to bring the tics for her! haha..omg...macam dah tua gitu..met Aqila and Amira,had dinner, and headed home..

3)had X-Country at Macritchie on Wednesday..very fine weather too...had a personal best timing..was knocked out at the finish line and gulped down 4 cups of cold milo...went to thompson plaza to eat after that..

4)Thursday school...had a poetry class for Lit tutorial..knew a new teacher for geog tutorial..and had a basically tiring day..We also have fundraising to fund our stall! A talented classmate made potraits for 2bucks..and a personalised poem for a buck..sales were *sniff sniff* i hate watery noses...

5)Friday. Had Malay dance SYF training..A dance instructor from PA came in..actually we learned more of a contemporary-traditional dance style..was pretty funny also during the practice where we just had to dance using our imagination following the music..according to d trainer..that's part of contemporarizing dance steps..ouch my foot...gonna have more trainings coming up.. =>

and that's about it for this week..(and it was a tiring week) will come by again..
and i hope you enjoy this new song on this blog yea?
cheerios!

Chicken Pie

...Candy Clouds...

2007-01-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

In my fields of innocence and tranquility,
Longing for the perfect dream, now
Hanging on the threads of time; I fall
Asleep in my bed of thorns;
My perfect dream

Final words of hush, lies
Insecurity, purity, sensitive, sweet
Raptured light luminates all that is
Dark, solemn, solitary
And how I long for it
Under an eternal sunlight, a
Solitary sojourn, sleep now

a Literature assignment,and this is what I had.There were beautiful pieces by my classmates too.I Love Lit. =>

~by a friend

In my own perfect world,
Life love and
Happiness prevails
And I'll run and laugh without a
care,
My own perfect world,that is
where I dream to be
~Farah

Poetry is a beauty unto itself.

Funeral on a Christmas Wedding

...bittersweet october...

2007-01-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

ahha had a Gr8 Friday..though it was really pouring the whole day..really cold and wet day.. But after sch went to Friday prayers with Shaz,Dinie and Hafiz in the wet wet wet weather..drenched wen we reached d mosque..after prayers we TRIED to get a taxi all the way till we actually reached Sembawang MRT..and thank God we did get a taxi there..
reached back school and met Fahimah and we jammed! wahha at last Sameon met Miss Neon! and my Miss Neon was alreadi "borrowed" by some of d gerls to take pics! hahaa...my Miss Neon..okies so Cikgu Fahimah taught me C,G,D,A and how to play Adam's Song by Blink182... hehez we realli had nice fun talkin abt music and guitars...and playing our guitars..had fun till abt abt 430 and headed home wen the rain subsided..had a good day..

hope to have another jam session..hehez..

Anyway have u ever had a dream u concocted and built on your own so peaceful,so sweet and so perfect that u thought that this is the way it should be and this is what u want for urself..and would do anithing to protect that dream and see it prevail? A dream so serene you smile when u think about it..and hope the other party would share the same dream as you..But that dream was nothing but false hopes and and a sad pain etched in your memories when it all tumbles down and torn apart slowly before u..A piercing heartache whenver you think about it again.. clutching on the remnants of the dream you know will never be realized and it was just an ember of lies and painful deceit.Shattered glass which cuts you deep when you try to piece it back again...and a mist which blinded you and now clears away leaving the true clear picture..
I had one..2 yrs ago..
and I move on ever since(or i try)..and don't look back(the memories plays around)

and just now there's this bastard who just prank called me asking for pizza and laughter at the background..i put down and he called again..blocked him..fcuking asshole have nothing to do in the middle of the night..skin him alive if i have the chance...it was a useless Mat..trash to d country..

hey you the asshole with HP NM 8 1 0 6 2 3 0 0 , go fcuk a frog in the sewers...

Deep Sleep Dreaming

...ignition key...

2007-01-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling happier.And it means alot.My class,0744A seems a nice bunch.Over these few days during the orientation and beginning of school,we interacted with each other and I learned quite a number of things about my new classmates.

And I so look forward to learning Literature.And Geography is as refreshing and fun as ever.
No more Biology.No more Chemistry.No more H2 Maths.No more headthrobbing,sweat inducing,heart palpitating,stressfull nights of trying to make sense of the equations and theories.
I've had fun with TriplePure Science in sec sch..I think a switch to Arts in College seems viable and beneficial for me.We are gonna learn "Exploring Other Worlds" in EngLit! Imagine that..
Just what I like..other worlds..Being lost in Fairytale lands and worlds of magic,technology, fantasy...Very refreshing..

My class is a talented and fun bunch..most are artistically inclined,where some are band members,others can debate,draw and others into sports too..Very well rounded...
At least 6 are musically inclined!We can form a class band..hehe..And it seems we can converse as a class..

I really hope for 2007 to be a better year,a meaningful one where I can focus and pick up from where I've fallen.

meht ees ot struh ti

...Blackbox and Carburetors...

2007-01-07T15:51:00.000+08:00

What's on your stereo?
Evanescence,Linkin Park and Poets Of The Fall

What's on telly?
Supernatural and My Name Is Earl

What tickles your tastebuds?
Anything sweet,spicy and yummy...

Set of wheels?
wanna own a HarleyDavidson..or a Rover

Hate anything?
Well God teaches us to love and respect..but i really hate those bloody impatient drivers and hitandrun accidents.Those cowards!Oh and crowds...

Green or Yellow?
I'll take green

Holiday destination/s?
Turkey and NewYork

Anything sweet?
RitterSport,Jellybeans and Snickers

Shoes?
Love them!

the beach or the park?
I love both of 'em.Beach for the sand and tides,park for the tranquility and greenery

Rainy or sunny days?
It depends...

If someone were to ask you if that bottle is half empty or half full,what would you reply?
I'd tell him to just shut up and drink.He should be thankful there's enough clean water for us.

Sports?
Swimming,running and gym

Name 3 things on your mind now.
1)Food(cuz im hungry)
2)I wanna try out my new running shoes.
3)I need to change my guitar strings.They're getting rusty.

See you some time soon?
Of course =>

hturt dellac ssalc a

...Deadly Remorse...

2007-01-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

0744A
A New Start
Faunus
Suprabeings
A Silent Remorse
Today school started.As I watched my friends in second year going for their classes,I felt such a sting in my heart.It was such a painful feeling.I did feel like breaking into tears.Im stuck down here.I felt so out of place.It was really depressing.I didn't have the mood for any cheers,or the school song,or dumb warmups involving our heads,shoulders whatever.I just felt so damn wasted.But there's a silver lining in every cloud.My class turned out to be pretty fun.As the day went by,we had fun winning every station games we had.And we had fun cheering.It made my day for the moment.And my OGLs Venetia and ShiHui were a great fun too.Im pretty thankful that today went well.But still,I need time to adjust myself.

Because seeing my friends in second year as seniors just takes such a big piece out of my heart. I really wish I can be there as well.I want to be with them.Its just so painful not being there in senior year.Now,I have to focus this pain in me to drive myself forward.Earn it.

Because the feeling of seeing them just hurts,and I want to be there.

One Eye Closed

...one size too many...

2007-01-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

A track through 2006...

~First Orientation @ InnovaJC
~Miccosuki Tribe(Hid,Afiq,Jean,ShiQian,Edmund,KokLung..and more)
~war games(and i have a deep cut to remind me of about this;got it at the field drain)
~0621A
~Campland @ EvergreenPri
~Parliament Trip(saw Eunice Olsen =>)
~Chalet @ ChangiAloha with 0621A
~NUS School Of Chemical Engineering Forum
~Second Intake Orientation--made many more nice frens
~0611A
~Geography Fashion Parade on Humanities Week..(i was a cupid..with a big heart sewn on my chest)
~Film Productions Unit and HipHopSociety
~Camp @ Jalan Bahtera
~MILKrun carnival @ Zouk
~skipping Chem Practicals and Geography Tutorials
~running 5 rounds around Teletubby Hill
~Army Talk @ Innova
~Teachers Day 06
~Racial Harmony Carnival @ Innova(played gasing and sold satay)
~Racial Harmony Carnival @ Ang Mo Kio( was videographer wit ZhenHui as broadcaster)
~CCA Open House 06
~OCS Trip
~watched Superman Returns wit Kumaran!!
~i tore my pants TWICE in school...(once during CCA Open House in front of a dozen people..once when doing flying kicks..how dumb hahaha)
~Birthday Bash for Kumaran..almost got reported to DM by Auntie Cleaner cuz we messed the toilet up..
~Trip to Kampung Ubi CC
~Show @ Esplanade wit Fiee and Syahirah;Melayu.com
~Parents-Teacher Meet
~Wrote poem and drew cartoons in Maths Final Paper
~Jalan Raya wit 0625A
~Teachers' Getaway @ Sentosa Pahlawan Beach
~Chalet @ Changi wit 0611A
~Best Improved Member 06 FPU
~feelings of depression,dejection and the blues
~and a new start ahead =>

gimme my 1901

...broken heart within...

2006-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

Its a few mins left to the new year..My feelings are mixed with remorse,solemnity,uncertainty, happiness,and some I just cant put to words.Basically 2006 has been a tremendous ride full of experiences,both good and bad.Actually i dont really know how quite to begin this,but I'll let it start with this common saying-Success is not a destination,but a journey.In this journey you are
bound to face mishaps,setbacks and stuff which just pulls you down.I've been through hard times before,and Im quite afraid to face such a situation again.But through such setbacks we learn,and adapt and move on.I admit,it may not be easy,and Im facing a very uncertain time myself..Im very afraid to fail and fall again..to fail my friends..to fail myself..to fail to achieve the best i want for my parents..Im torn up inside and between hell and a hard place..it can be easy for ppl to say i didnt study enough ,but they dont know what i went through..It can be easy for pple to badmouth,but look in the mirror first and mind your own rice bowl.But nevertheless, failure is a leg to success,and we are all still young.From mistakes we learn,new paths we take.
This new year,I will do my very best and not let all those who have always been there and supporting me down..I admit,my heart hurts for many reasons.Im torn,Im tired. Smiles may just be a facade.
However so,i thank all of you who have been dere for me..and let me prepare myself for the uncertainties ahead.
for all the heartbreaks
for all the tainted
for all the misjudged
for all that was wrong
for all that is right

I forgive,and I thank

Broken Heart Within

...2 upon a piece...

2006-12-31T17:51:00.000+08:00

went to school on Saturday nite for NewMediaArts Appreciation Nite..had to pay 7bucks..sobs.. My money...now im officially broke totally..i have 15 cents in my wallet left..but Shilling needed me there so i relented..hope to have fun dere..well played some games..and me n Shilling won! haha..had fun lah..BUT i was disappointed at the buffet..come on..we paid 7bucks each..can't u come up with nicer food?? haha..but the real surprise came when..i was awarded Most Dedicated member to Film Productions! I really wasnt expecting it and was shocked really... Thanks Shilling for nominating me! and thanks Mr Lee and the whole New Media Arts! I will improve more and and be more dedicated to FPU in hopes of expanding this CCA..=>

Thx guys and gals!

now on to 2007...

hehe..
Me and my Award...
mine and the Head's

two-fisted tales

...There's no spoon...

2006-12-31T16:49:00.000+08:00

Went to Library@ esplanade wit Fanaa last Saturday..met up at city hall first and headed down there.Turns out the library wasn't as nice as we thought it'd be..mostly arts,theatre and filmography books and what more,most of them aren't even for loan..But it was a very relaxing and class place so we sat at a corner reading some cool stuff..Then we went off to Starbucks and GrooveNation @ MS..wanted to play bowling but place was packed so we played the arcade.. Shooting dinosaurs and robots..haha really had fun dere..

Then we headed off to the war Memorial Park..where we just sat down and enjoyed the quiet, relaxing atmosphere..was pretty solemn yet a bright place dere,somehow its just peaceful and tranquil there..so we just talked about life..stuff..while enjoying the breeze..

thx for d nice time =>

@ Esplanade

Loony
A Sojourn Tree
@ Starbucks

War Memorial Park

A Tower To Commemorate

serene zephyr

...26th december 2004...

2006-12-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

Tribute

The day was after Christmas
All in merry mood and
Everyday business
Alas a mighty force beneath the surface
Swept across half the globe
Waves came crashing
Without warning
Washing all standing in their way
From coast to coast
Lives taken abruptly
Homes underneath a roaring bed
of an endless stream
Whole families gone,
Families broken apart
It was a great force which broke souls apart
This fateful tragedy
But an awakening rises
Nations realises the need,
The urge,
The sorrow
From where they fell,
They picked back up again
It wasn't easy
Such a tragedy to overcome
But this great force
Has shown the strength of a people,
Of a world
Rising and rebuilding
It was a great force which banded souls together
A great force it was,a mighty wave
A wave of destruction:upon which
A wave of hope

dedicated to the countless who lost their lives in a great tragedy on 26th December 2004;Asian Tsunami and to those who has since rebuilt hope and salvation for themselves and others

one among the rest

...Mirror and lenses

2006-12-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Rummaged through old photos a few days ago and went through them with my mom..How time really flies,one moment you're a baby crawling in diapers the next you're collecting your Diploma or Degree..Always loved listening to stories of time past and reminiscing(did i spell that correctly?)hehe..
here's some pics:

mom :19 yrs old

Dad(in Spiderman costume):NS costume Competition;won second place

Mom and Me

Me:Hari Raya 1993

Me(few mths old) with milk bottle

...one on the ledge...

2006-12-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

hmm Christmas is tomorrow..

Jingle Bells
Batman Smells
Robin laid an Egg
Batmobile Lost Its Wheel
and Batgirl Broke Her Leg
Hey!

by:The Joker, Batman's archenemy...

Jungle Bells
Jungle Bells
Jungle All TheWay
Tarzan Smells
Banana Sells
Monkeys Swinging All The Way
Hey!

by:Tarzan and Jane

no offense is meant with these carols..just trying to bring more joy to the mood of festive seasons..HoHoHo!!
Season Greetings to All!
=>

Rudolf the RedNosed Reindeer

...old firehouse and a view...

2006-12-21T13:17:00.000+08:00

went out with Fanaa on tuesday to OldFirehouse Museum @ Hill Street. Was a very fun day.. a trip to learn about our heritage..So we met up in the train and alighted at CityHall..the museum wasnt hard to find..a stone's throw from Excelsior Hotel..But it was raining and it was a very wet day..and thus once in the OldFirehouse we had loooads of fun takin pics and learning the history of our firefighters and civil defence forces..got into a vintage 1950s fire engine and relaxed inside it..was pretty spacious too..

went to "Bukit Ho Swee"..admired d artifacts around the museum and even had a drawing session..hehe..such artists..after the fun track back tru time..we went to Marina Square to eat.. was raining Cats n Dogs while waiting 4 d shuttle bus..but the wait was worth it when the bus came.Sooo cozy larh the bus..wen we arrived was like so lazy to get up..and thus we went around the nice place..Fanaa bought a pair of Ripcurl footwear first as her shoes were givin her painful trouble..nice place dere..was Wowing at the LegoShop,FourSkin,ActionCity and d loads of nice shops dere..one thing i like most was the relaxed atmosphere..

and thus we ate with a very nice view in sight..met Amirah n Aswad..and even Aqilah and Abdullah..wat a coincidence lor..marvellous..okie after more window shoppin me n Fanaa went to Esplanade! went to d Hollywood shop and Mrs Fields..had some dessert @ the Esplanade..and took more pics ard the place..

headed back home around 6 plus..

was a great day..

=>

the Old Firehouse

OutsideHello?

Cak!

me n Fanaa

so 60's posein the fire engine

im ready!FireFighter Gal

Bukit Ho Swee

who's gonna save me?

new art student!

@ Marina Square

nice viewwit Amirah

@ Royal Sporting House

@ Esplanade

a warning...

...damn the zipper...

2006-12-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

lets see...here's some chim/weird/long/useful words i got from the thesaurus.. its probably useful in some context..maybe u guys can try use it at some time..lolz

(and yes im a geek who do read the dictionary and thesaurus for fun..its realli fun!try it lah...)

zephyr--soft gentle wind from the west

peripatetic (sounds like "very pathetic")--going from one place to place

jocose--jocular

jocular--fond of joking

joke--crappy stuff we say to make pple laugh(or call u lame or give blank stares)

unguent--oitment

hysterectomy--surgical removal of the womb(urrgh)

nephritis--inflammation of the kidneys(ouch)

ok now this sounds like a medical lesson..urgh..
more comin your way some other time..same url,same homepage...

reppiz lufniap ym

12 White egrets

2006-12-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

What right do you have to tell me these things?
What right do you have to open back the past?
What right do you have to act as if im the villian?
did u pay for my education? did i owe u anitin? are u even related to me? NO right?
then what are u doin here telling me such trivial,senseless perverse stuff?!
you dont know anything..u'd better get facts first...

and please leave from my life...yes YOU...
i dont want to fall into another senseless trap..

and YOU,get a life...see the truth for yourself..keep badmouthing off and soon u'll wash dat trap yourself off a drain...ask the OTHER one for the truth...

well..we cant please everybody dats for sure..you do this they criticise..you do that they mock.. you dont do anything they make such a fuss about it...

Guess what? I dont care..and YOU...open your eyes please and see the truth for whats happening..dont be such a pretentious,superficial gullible soul.

please realise yourselves..
let me be..and you all lead your lives ok?

nekatsim dna detartsurf

...im a kid and am proud of it!!!

2006-12-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

went to ViVo AGAIN yesterday..had lunch wit Zhira,Maria and another of their fren..
Zhira owed me lunch..nyehehz..cuz of a present pool...so dere we were at Banquet @ViVo..
i was quiet all d way during lunch..they had Girl's Talk..haha..
okie after lunch we went JALAN2! fun lah...window shopping..had a crazy time at ToysRUs..
and if u are wondring yes Im a kid at heart..hehe..BIG KID...love toys lah..

hmm went to Topshop,PullnBear,Zara,blablabla...and oh yes my dear fren Zhira panicked in the train on the way to ViVo..haha..act she didnt realli panicked but the way she asked us where we were sounds like its her first train ride..nyehehz..jgn marah Zhira..cheers!

Barney!!

a snow white i ain't...erm..

hello kiddos!!

since when do construction workers use swords?

and yes I hate Barney..that purple irritating dinosaur...

trapa em erot uoy

...Through the times...

2006-12-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ma n Pa
look over yonder!
whose penguin is that? that's my boat!

todae i went outing wit my Ma n Pa! been quite some time we did that..so off we went to
the great big (and cold) ViVoCity..had brunch over there..and an impatient gundu just couldnt be patient enough to wait for his turn to order till he knocked over slightly at my dad's plate
of lontong..Luckily only a bit of the gravy got on his shirt..a small dot..but it was quite obvious
since he wore a white shirt..Gundu lah these typical singaporeans..cannot wait issit? Can die arh
wait for a few seconds..not like the shop will run away...Sick lah dese pple..Good thing he apologized if not someone's head will go into the pot of gravy..hehe..

den went around at ToysRUs..weee!!
I dont wanna grow up! Im a ToysRUs Kid!

took some pics around d place..and den we took the bus Nm80 to sengkang int. A very Interesting bus..it went tru all those historical,interesting places around Singapore...
These were the roads we saw along the way..interesting..
-Jalan Chermat
-Jalan Bunga Rampai
-Jalan Ong Lye
-Jalan Kubur
-Simon Road
-Florence Road
-Eu Tong Sen Street
-North Bridge Road
-South Bridge Road
-New Bridge Road
-Naung Road
-Marang Road
and some landmarks...
-Diamond Industries
-Tai Seng Clinic(at my dad's kampung!!)
-Sultan Mosque
-Paya Lebar Old Firehouse
hehez..VEEERY interesting trip..was like a trip in a time machine..so many remeniscences...
okie so dere..was pretty cool trip out wit Ma n Pa...
=>

down the dusty trail

...Ma, is this our world?

2006-12-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

..and i went to Peninsula todae wit Cai Ling and her buncha frens..CL wanted to buy a guitar,

an acoustic one..and so we went to d first shop..looked around..and then went to another..

(and why oh why CL are u shy to strum d guitar n try playin it???u asked me to play..

its not me whose gonna buy waat..haha..)aand we got a package of an electric acoustic,bag,cable,

strap,tuner and picks of $315..after i bargained wit da uncle..nice guy lah he..gave $9 discount

also can..ok den we went LJS for lunch..dis guy in our grp..he's pretty noisy and quite irritating lah...can just eat or not? talk3..haha..den he cut his crispy chicken all the crispy bits fly to me..

Marvellous..

den we went off to Queensway to look around..cool stuff dere..gonna shop dere soon..but

there's one thing im my mind.."Show Me The $$$!!!"..no $$$ how to shop tell me..

den tonight watched news wit Mom..seen all the chaos,bloodshed,troubles,destruction,killings,

bombings and all those nonsense which keep happening in around the world..Really man..

What's happening to the world Momma?!People killin like they aint got no Mommas...

cant Adults just try to get along for goodness sake?why kill just over differences in Religion,

Sovereignty,Politics.....they can actually have a sit at the rountable talk it out..BUT NOO..

they must KIll Maim Bomb Rape Slaughter Pollute..damn lah..damn these stupid adults ruining our beautiful MotherEarth..i apologize for my heated discussion...its just gettin worse..our world..just hope it isnt too late for them to realise...they should all chill and have a look at how Beautiful God's great Earth is actually...when we all live in peace and harmony..

Take Care yea to All my Friends...always be remembering ALL of you..=>

seye nepo htiw dlrow eht nees

..and I may say so

2006-12-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

Recently i had great times..been meeting friends and makin new ones..

First off was Zhira's bday party @ ArandaCountryClub..was nice meeting her and her friends..

Ate quite a lot too i guess..and her friends realli thought i gave her perfumes or makeup since

i had that special edition AnnaSui paperbag carrying her gift..but it wasnt those stuff btw..was

something else lah..So we ate and talked and took pics..realli like d place and pple dere..Thx Zhira =>

last count:15 satays,5 bbqwings,3 hotdogs,2 crabsticks,3 cake slices

Secondly was Fanaa's Bday party at The Savannah..was like WOAH when i stepped in the place..

It was The Jungle(thus the name)..and there were animals..sculputered ones lah.. and THX

Fanaa for calling me a monkey..well there's always a banana also..Damn big lah d place..

wish i have a crib like dat..but was drizzling while we ate..nice lah..rain-flavored juice and satay..

and thx Fanaa for letting us exercise our legs for almost 2km while dere was a shuttle service..

hehe..anw..realli like d party AND the place..met new frens again..THx Fanaa =>

last count:20 satay,6 bbqwings,2 chicken burgers,2 big otahs,2 cake slices

yes i have big appetite..i love parties..FOOD..yummy..

sedosipe ym

...and the ones...

2006-12-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

Ten im just thinking of now...
in no numerical order

Idah
She's a talented, creative painter at TP..thx fer d frenship yea? give my regards to Rino..haha

Sue
hey Sis..You doin great?

Sidekick
haah...lets catch criminals someday..

Cai Ling
Sweety..dis blog aint born if not for her...

ZH
he owes me a present he CLAIMS he has for me..but haven't given it..
dey when can i get it??haha

Muz
thx fer d new frenship...=> nice noeing ya

Zhira
yea i noe i said it..but great party!..but i only ate 5 chicken wings..not enuf..

Khairun
Khai! miss her and those times at campland...

Liyana
a nice fren...rmbr Metro yea...

GOD
never forget Him for He is ur Benefactor,Protector and Forgiver...

..I can see the pyramids!!

2006-12-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

another conversation which happened some time after d camp...

Shehera:How old are you?
Me:Im 17..college boy.Wassup?
Shahera:(giggling and whispering to Zetty)
Really?Why only seventeen you so tall one?
Me:Ai..17 is this tall what..later you n your frens 17 will grow tall also..
Zetty:macam hantu galah(pole ghost)...

for your info.."hantu galah" is a malay term for a VEEEERY tall GHOST...and
no..they don't pole dance...they are just long like poles..

GR8..first time a P5 gerl calls me a Hantu Galah..i've been called THAT and more before..

2TALL

..I aint No psycho..

2006-12-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

did i mention how much i loved those kids back @ Campland? hehe..guess
i did..
this conversation happened between me and Vivi at the start of d camp:

Me:Vivien,if we can choose the kids into our group,we choose the cute little girls

one can?
Vivi:You mean YOU want the cute girls..
Me:Hehe..cute little girls lah..they so cute..easier to handle than any rowdy boys..
Vivi:The girls will run away from you one..scared of you..
Me:Won't one..they'll love me..hahaha
Vivi:''--_____--
Me:OK onz?
Vivi:Watever lah...go choose now...

*note:Im NOT a psycho...i just love Kids..

=>

cakb dehctits traeh nekorb

...and it seems so familiar

2006-12-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

and we had such a great time on Monday n Tuesday..wit those cute P5 kids!Campland is back again and this time it was at Greenwood Primary. Actually initially i was lethargic to attend the camp lah..slept too late the night before..but remembering the great times we had for d Campland @ evergreen pri. somehow gave me d energy to meet those kids.

I partnered up wit Vivien and took a total of 12 kids by d second day(one came onli on d 2nd day cuz his granma passed away).

RollCall:Fareez,Adib,Rano,Sara,Zetty,Shahera,Samantha,Crystal,Monica,WenTian,Darren, and the last guy i forgot the name..bummer.

they were initially hard to gell together but as time went by it was fine.Adib was a hyperactive sort.and i was bullied by Zetty n Shahera..but i bullied em back..nah just kiddin.. onli teased em.Sara was a quiet matured type..somehow i just felt like if i had a lil sis would she be like her..i liked Sara and she was pretty funny too..Darren was quiet but a gd sport..and basically they all were a nice bunch of kids..

they were a fun bunch and me and Vivi had a memorable experience handling em.

anw since i don't have any siblings it just made me so happy to take care of those kids..i love kids yea =>

and on d 2nd day i brought my Old Pokemon card collection plus my VS deck in an album for d boys to look at..and d inquisitive smiles in their faces took me back when i was their age..it somehow feels so familiar..haha..

was dead tired by the 2nd day but it was damn worth it..seeing those kids taking back new experiences and lessons learnt from d camp..

maybe I'll talk about some funny instances dat happened in later posts..

see ya..

seiromem teews ym

...Crikey!is that the Zookeeper?

2006-12-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

this conversation happened today..

Mom: Fir,there's this job as a tram guide. I can try it eh?
Me: Tiring job u noe.
Mom: Alah, being a guide.I should handle it.Working hours are from 6pm to 12pm.
Me: What?! Forget it.It's at Night Safari isn't it?
Mom: Yah.Best jugak ni..
Me: Mak.. its at night.So dark. You'd probably point at the tree branch and say its a snake. And then you point at the zookeeper and say its a bear! HAhahhaha..
Mom: Kurang asam nye budak.Pandai eh cakap mak die...

hehe...

dat was one of maaaany "disturbing" conversations we had this day..

aaand for my frens..hold on yea..

d pics are on d way..
=>

The First Post

2006-12-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

hello dere people of blogger-world. This be my first post of my first blog,and i have someone to thank for making this possible =>.

A lot have sinced past my life..and I'll most probably be talking abt 'em in later posts..for now lets skip the formalities and get to know each other k?

Firstly I'm just Me..a frenly guy minding his own business.

Likes:
[Food][Music][Movies][Comics][Red and Black][MTV][Graphics][Esplanade][Town][ToysRUs][Gigs][MommyDearest][Life][Frens][College]

Dislikes:
[smoking][my nextdoorneighbours][exhaustsmoke][those irritating noises u can hear everywhere]

and that concludes my first post in this ever-oh-so-nice blog of mine(THX CL). Be Seeing U Soon...

yes you...

sweetbitter tears